I'm getting tired of Facebook. I've been growing tired of it for a while. Not everything about it, but a good portion of it.
Today I changed my homepages on my browser so that Facebook was not one of them.
Perhaps it's that when I think about what I wanted out of Facebook, I think of what I want to share with my family and close friends. And that's not what it is anymore. At least not to me. I think others got tired of it long before I did.
As I think of how I use Facebook, I think about promoting what I write on this blog. But really, we can all agree that I'm no "Pioneer Woman" and I never will be. So I don't need to maintain a presence just to promote myself anymore.
I think of the friends I have on there. Some I have known most of my life. Some are new friends who are quite dear to me. But many are acquaintances who I have no real reason to be connected to... except that this is what we do on Facebook.
"Hey, I know them."
I think about the things I share, which often reflect my personal thoughts and beliefs, thoughts and beliefs that a good portion of my Facebook friends don't agree with. But I don't share those thoughts to get in arguments; I share because it's what I'm thinking. And I don't even know what I can say on my own Facebook page without getting yelled at.
So perhaps, I need to step away.
I've been feeling overwhelmed lately. I admit that a good part of that has been the slow accumulation of papers throughout my house. On my dresser. On the spare table. In the corner. In the other corner. In the other other corner. On the floor. And I let them sit there.
I feel like I'm always forgetting something. But I'll check the news a few times a day. And then my Facebook feed. I'm overwhelmed but I don't need to be. I'm letting myself be overwhelmed by the things that don't matter. I need to disconnect, to some degree, because I don't need to know what an acquaintance from 15 yeas ago is doing today. I don't need to know that Hollywood is making a new movie about this baseball star.
I need to spend more time doing what's best for my family. I'll still be here. If you really want to know what I think, you can see my blog. And I will still update Facebook. Maybe. But I don't want to look at it every time I open my browser.
And that Facebook-Friend weeding I did a while back? It's going to happen again, much more dramatically. I'm cutting back on the things that distract me. Don't take it personally. It's what my family needs, to get the best of me.