I've enjoyed reading a few friends' blogs over the last few days. As I read, I often feel a range of emotions:
Joy - I am truly happy for what's happening in their life
Sorrow - When friends write of sad things it, obviously, makes me sad for them
Encouragement - I love being encouraged when I read of ways I can improve.
And then there's:
Jealousy - I admit that I sometimes find myself wishing I could have the experience that I'm reading about. Whether it's a deep spiritual thought or a fun family activity or a conversation between good friends, I wish, just for a brief moment, that the experience were mine.
And then I smack myself upside the head, figuratively (and sometimes literally) for being so ridiculous. And then I remind myself that I only read the highlights.
To keep it real on my blog (since I'm all about keeping it real), let me tell you about the terrible, horrible, no good, very bad day I had recently. There were a few things that happened that, by themselves, would not have made much negative impact on my day. But one thing piled on top of another and many times through the day I found myself apologizing to the kids for my behaviour.
I had made promises about how the day would go that just didn't happen. Circumstances were out of my control, but kids expect promises to be kept all the same. I barked at them and they lost their tempers with each other. I told the kids that I was trying.
I know that it could have been worse. I was trying to exercise self-control. I didn't yell a whole lot. It was more an inner frustration at things just not going as planned.
We finally all sat down to dinner together and chatted about our day. It was time to hit the "Reset" button on our day. After dinner we spent about three hours just having fun together. By bed time we were all smiling and looking forward to the fun we would have tomorrow.
|I'd had it up to "Here" with my awful day.|
"But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law." Galatians 5:22-23
Without that fruit, I'd be a mess. And the more I submit to the leading of God's spirit in my life, the more fruity I get. Oh, I still have some rotten fruit that doesn't come from the Spirit. Otherwise I wouldn't have terrible, horrible, no good, very bad days. But I am so thankful for God's grace, which lets me hit the reset button on those days and start over with a different attitude. Because a God-directed, Spirit-led day is so much better than the alternative, even in Australia.
(Sidenote: "Fruit of the loom" is googled more often than "Fruit of the Spirit". Not surprising, I suppose.)
(Sidenote #2: I do have Gal 5:22-23 memorized but it's easier to copy and paste it than to type it. Ironically, I ended up typing a lot more just to write these two sidenotes about looking it up.)